My last night in Miami and I promised a few coworkers that we would go to south beach. Damn, why was this was the night they chose? I had been avoiding them most of the week so I felt like I couldn't opt out. I went along half heartedly with the promise that we would be back early. It was beautiful but all I was thinking about was V.
When we finally made it back it was about 10. I called V and he said he was on his way. I drank a diet coke while I waited, didn't want to be sleepy.
When he walked in the room it was obvious he was tired. Once he closed the door he said, "hmm you look nice in a dress".. He asked me to walk across the room for him... "what?" I said, "are you serious?" "Come on baby I want to see you walk." Funny walking is something I have done everyday since I learned how but when I tried to walk across that little room I was incredibly self conscious and awkward.
He laughed, walked to me and hugged me. Sweetheart, even if you walked like that all the time I would think you were sexy if I passed you on the street.
Some oldies station was all I could pick up on the hotel clock/radio in the room. A man loves a woman was playing softly... "Dance with me?" he asked. I smiled, "Are you sure? You see how graceful I am."..."I seem to remember you saying you wanted to dance with me" he said. I paused, all I could say was "wow", he smiled, "did you think I forgot?"
At least a year before that night I told him that I dreamt that we danced a waltz in a large ballroom with a big crowd, scene from some old movie probably. He promised we would dance someday.
His arms around me, our bodies swaying to that same old love song so many lovers have danced to before... We were in a different place, our own place, our own island, living out our private fairy tale, it was as if I heard that song for the first time.
Afterward he sat in a chair and pulled me in his lap. "Tell me about south beach" he said.. "Oh, I almost forgot", I jumped up and pulled a disposable camera out of my purse. "What are you doing with that?" "Please, let me take your picture V?" "You think you can capture a true image me with that?"he asked. "It would mean so much V, please?"
"Ok, he said as he leaned back in his chair." I pressed the button, no click..
I took a picture of the sunrise with it the morning before while he slept. I almost took one of him sleeping but I decided it would be better if I had his permission. I took a couple of pictures at south beach too but it still had at least 15 pictures left...
"Hmm maybe I didn't advance the film?"I guessed.. "It's stuck, you try" I handed it to V.... "Nope, it won't move, where did you buy that thing?" I tried and tried but never got it to take another picture.
Soon it was time to sleep... He did, I couldn't. The next morning I had to leave and it will probably be a long time before I could see him again. As I laid there with my head on his shoulder, listening to his heart beat, feeling him breath, gently, steadily, I was reviewing the week in my head. I tried to remember every detail I could..
I don't know when I fell asleep but I woke up 10 minutes before the alarm, reached over and turned it off. Snuggled in with V again and woke him up the way he liked me to...I was emotional but I managed to fight off the tears as we made love..
After the call home and our shower I was packing a few last things... He started helping me, "Come on babe you need to leave soon" "What are you going to do with these diet cokes?" Just leave them in the refrigerator for the maid I said as I went to get my cosmetics bag in the bathroom..
My suitcase was closed and ready to go when I came out. "It's ok, I have a few minutes." He was even more nervous looking out the peephole..."I don't want your coworkers to see me leaving." "It will be ok" I said as I stood behind him and hugged him tight... I was tearing up, "I don't want to leave you" I said. He turned to face me "I don't want you to leave either" he said. "By the way, when are you moving in with me?" I looked at the floor shamefully.. "I wish there was a way, he cut me off, "I know you can't stay sweetheart, he pulled me close speaking softly, "your little girl needs you, it's ok, when she grows up I will ask you again." I felt a hot tear slowly drip down my face. He squeezed again .. "this is just the honeymoon remember?" "Promise me I will see you again? I asked" "You will" he kissed me softly, "I love you". "I love you too" I whispered, "I know" he said.
"Ok then, smile, we are in love and life is beautiful."
"You are going to be late, I'm leaving now, call me" One more look out the peephole and he was gone. I gave him a minute to get on the elevator. I couldn't wait to watch him get to his car, it was late. I grabbed my suitcases and rushed to the elevator. I had to check out and let them store my luggage before the shuttle leaves for class.
There was one woman enrolled in the class we were in who was not part of our group. She got on the shuttle and said "I sort of wish I wasn't going home today. There are a lot of nice attractive men here". There was a collective laugh in the shuttle.... "Even this morning I was walking down the hallway with my suitcase and some man asked if he could carry it for me, he brought it all the way to the lobby." "Really?" someone asked, "did he work there?" "No, he was just a gentleman" she said smiling.
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